Note To friends

You may not remember me as someone that would be writing you. My sister told me your husband was in the hospital in a state of depression. Well I am a champion from that form of illness. My first bout of depression came in October, 1960 after I was involved in an accident in Cave City where a man was killed. The depression came and I went to Dr. Douglas for medical help. I have no idea if he helped or not. I remember mother and daddy was very concerned. One day that fall your husband’s father came down with a rod & reel and he , daddy & I went fishing. I was so depressed I hardly knew what I was doing. As winter wore off so did my depression. I use alcohol for almost 16 years to self medicate my condition only to make things worse for me and my family.

Through the years from 1960 to 1986 I was hospitalized 5 times for 120 days. In may 1986 I was given lithium to stabilize my condition. My mental condition became the best that I could ever remember, however it slowed my mental process to a point I could no longer work in the high stress position that I had been working for 30 years. After losing 4 jobs in 33 months there came a point I had to say enough is enough and got on disability. Fran and I had two teenage boys with a very small income. Things have a way of working out. Both are working on their Master Degree as of this writing. When my disability was certain, I became very disheartened. I did not know where to use all my hard earned skills. I became a stay at home dad for two teen age sons. Also started in a very serious way sharing my experience, strength and hope with those suffering with the same illness as I.

I used to be ashamed of my illness, but no longer, now I work within a fellowship to share with others my affliction. I spend 20 to 30 thirty hours a week (as much as I can) with this kind of work.

In these 46 years I have learned a little about this illness. The only resource for healing is the medical folks and faith. I must follow the doc advice, if not working I must stay in close contact. I must remember he is an artist painting freehand. Everybody reacts differently to treatment so the doc must act according. It is paramount importance that I keep the doc abreast of how the treatment is doing. When working with others I find this to the number one drawback to getting the proper medical treatment.

This works for too:

Matthew 6:33-34 (King James Version)

 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

Mark 9:28-30 (King James Version)

 28 And when he was come into the house, his disciples asked him privately, Why could not we cast him out?

 29 And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting.
Author: harold