Just For Today (09/23/07)

I have just finished the weekend at the Fall Jubilee. After a week of trying to get the house sold so that we can move on (not.org). The brain seems to be not engaged. Reading is out of the question. Composing is hard. I would find it hard to find where I am on the one to ten chart but I would say about 4.2 just a guess. We still have one problem but I am trying to let it happen as it should. Just trying to stay focused.
Author: harold

Fears and Spiritual Healing

It appears my undefined fears of 30 plus years ago appeared to be real yesterday. However they must the handled in the same manner to become spiritual fit

Early 1976 I was in a mental hospital in Minneapolis MN. I was taken there from an alcoholic/drug addiction treatment center where I had been for 14 days. It was obvious to all that I needed treatment for mental illness and alcoholism. After about two weeks in the mental ward the medical treatment team thought I was ready to resume my treatment for alcoholism.

I was still housed in the mental heath ward but I was getting treatment from the alcohol treatment ward in another building. The two building were connected via tunnel. (Go to Minnesota in winter you will understand). The first time I went to the other building I came upon this tunnel and I could not see the other side, for reason only the mentally ill understand I had a panic attack I will never forget. The only thought that came to mind was to recite the 23rd Psalm. This continued to take place for a few days, however it did discontinued after some time.

This episode and some others give an indication that I have a spiritual illness. The 23rd Psalm is very good spiritual tool for the condition I was facing at that time. However the best spiritual tool I have found is the serenity prayer.

God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference

The second best taken in bits and pieces needed at the time of need: St Francis Prayer

Lord, make us instruments
of your peace.
Where there is hatred
let us sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is discord, union;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.

Grant that we may not
so much seek
To be consoled as to console;
To be understood
as to understand;
To be loved as to love.

For it is in giving
that we receive;
It is in pardoning
that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are
born to eternal life.

Author: harold