Month: February 2007

Today I want to write but it is hard to accomplish. I want to read but that is more difficult, trying to research on the web is impossible. Entering into a state of chronic fatigue is depression. For a better understanding read Edgar Allen Poe’s, “The Raven”.
Author: harold

Neighbor of mine doing his thing on the drug war.

Keep on keeping on
Author: harold

The information on drugs directed at 100% of our children is stated as information to stop addiction, when in fact it is political propaganda. As my personal experience has shown about alcohol, the best and most reliable information came from my peers and those that had used alcohol. After use my own information became better than anyone’s.

The best and most reliable information on drugs comes from the drug culture. Where to buy, the best product, how to use, caution on amounts to use, share the cost and etc. Most of all how not to get caught. Herein lies the evil of the drug laws.

Most of our youngsters will accept the political garbage and go forth and become another DEA advocate. There is no information about how not become an addict. The underling disease is already in the brain. The methodology for spotting this condition does not EXIST.

Author: harold

The moralist view: Youngster uses drugs, becomes addict

Weirdharold’s view: Youngster is crazy *, uses drugs, becomes addict, goes insane. Every youngster that uses does not become an addict. (very obvious) From my own experience, there is no way to spot nor stop that craziness*. The belief we can, creates our society’s own insanity. The only person more insane than an addict that continues to use is the person trying to make them stop.

Lots of nouns could be used here, spiritual unfit, fanatical, extreme, passionate whatever might be said. I use crazy to draw attention.

And these folks come from all these places without regard to racial background, all form of material wealth, both sexes, and all forms of religions.
Author: harold

Our creative and intelligent academia will continue to discover central nervous systems depressants, stimulants and hallucinogens. So long as these drug laws are in effect there will be no quality control, nor will any laws of supply and demand be in effect. The only thought will be, do not get caught. The only education that will be in effect will come from the drug culture. Then the media will have another drug to hype.

Drugs and their effect upon the brain is far above my pay grade. I have been told by 19 psychiatrists, trying to treat my manic depressive disorder, it is above theirs also when it come to my alcoholism.

My solution is a follows:

Give Otis access to the jail key, take the bullet away from Barney.
Author: harold

God has blessed me in many ways. My parents were very humble people. Their resources for living came from a 98 acre tobacco farm in central Kentucky. At age 21 I married a 19 year old young lady from that area. We both to the vow, for better or worse very seriously. My wife, after 19 years of marriage gave birth to third son. Again we were blessed with the intelligence, the patience, honesty and Love from God to aid these three through childhood to adulthood that they could leave and join with their spouse and live upon their own.

Since my 19th year I have been treated for a mental illness. At my 45th year I was diagnosed as manic depressive while 10 years earlier I had determined I was an alcoholic. I believe this manic depressive illness came from some radical gene since 71 other adults from four generations have no such brain problems. The alcoholic most likely a search for relief.

My manic depressive/alcoholic condition has caused my wife, my children, coworkers, employers and me much pain. Again this condition can be turned into a blessing or self pity and I have lived through both. I am sure my family has too.

Living in a state of self pity, I have moved my family to many places to seek the gold at the end of the rainbow. I learned I must develop spiritual tools to end that self pity or it will slide into depression, then despair. The depression or despair is not well understood, nor is the recovery from it. My methodology has been to study and practice.
Author: harold

I attended a fellowship meeting the other day where sex was discussed. Chapter 5. page 68 bottom paragraph to 3 or 4 paragraphs on page 70 was read. Click here and download Chapter 5 and turn to page 68 read last paragraph to the end of the chapter. To me the first paragraph of the essay is so important to us as fellowships members to help all stay sober and recovery from alcoholism.

In an obscure way it tells us we all have sex problems and opinions on sex cover a wide range. To me the very important statement is, ” We want to stay out of this controversy. We do not want to be the arbiter of anyone’s sex conduct. We all have sex problems.” The author of the text was very careful as not to get into behavior. This is my blog and I will say what I please. I want to say the statement says I must Love a man seeking help for alcoholism if his wife of 30 years cut him off from sex because of his drunkenness and he starts looking around house for other sexual partners, whether it be daughter, son, sister, brother, or a Holstein heifer. Maybe just a single handed operation with a good imagination seeking Brittany Spears. I do not think I should insert myself into that family and tell them how I think their problem can be solved.

As all my fellowship work is to, share my experience, strength, and hope to help others stop drinking. A meeting on this subject can be harrowing for a newcomer. He may not be able to distinguish sharing, from bragging or maybe confessing or lying. I do not think dividing our groups by sex can help this process.
Author: harold